Lyrics for "Let Me Sign" by Rob Pattinson

Ok, here's another song on the Twilight soundtrack... it comes as a bonus track on iTunes, not on the retail CD. It's another one performed by Rob Pattinson. It plays in the movie when Bella is dying in the ballet studio.

Let Me Sign

Oohh
Oohh
Standing there by the broken tree,
Her hands were all twisted, she was pointing at me.
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes.
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky.
She said 'Walk on over yeah to the bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

As I walked through the door she was still in my head
As I entered the room she was laid there in bed
She reached out for me all twisted in black
I was on my way down, never coming back
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

Lyrics found at: www.metrolyrics.com
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Lyrics for "Never Think" by Rob Pattinson

I loved this song from the Twilight Soundtrack since the first time I heard it. However I couldn't understand all the words as he sang them (Rob Pattinson, you know)... so I looked up the lyrics. This song plays while Edward and Bella are at the restaurant in Port Angeles.

Never Think

I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh Love
So call me by my name

And oh, save your soul
save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
To tell you to hold off
You choose to hold on
It's the one thing that I've known

Once I put my coat on
I'm coming out of this all wrong
She's standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love

Girl save your soul
Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
And before nothing can be done

'Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Hold on

Lyrics found at: www.metrolyrics.com
Photo courtesy of : www.flickr.com

Twilight - Quote from Bella, page 140

"Making decisions was the painful part for me, the part I agonized over. But once the decision was made, I simply followed through - usually with relief that the choice was made." page 140 of Twilight.


As I read these words a feeling of envy washed over me. When I was younger.. much younger... I used to struggle quite a bit with decisions I had made. At Bella's age (17 here) I was strong-willed and stubborn, and I'm sure quite prideful. I was carefully considerate at each opportunity that presented itself and I always made my choices on my own, very rarely allowing even my closest friends in on what was in my deepest thoughts. Like Bella, I always followed through with whatever decision I had committed to, but I can't honestly say that I was ever relieved at having made a choice. I often second-guessed my thought processes, although never enough to reveal them to those around me.

I suppose this is one of Bella's characteristics that draws me to her. I think daily about how strange it is that I am so intrigued by Stephenie Meyer's vampire saga. Is it silly for me to feel the butterflies in my stomoach each time I think of Edward? Is it because I'm craving that emotional roller-coaster ride of hormones and excitement from my younger years? No, I really don't think so. When I first finished reading the series I couldn't put my finger on the deep connection I felt to the characters. I certainly wasn't anything like Bella when I was her age... but then again, who of us were? She does however have amazingly mature traits that I admire. Her resolve when making very life-altering decisions, her bravery in the face of real danger, and the absolute love that she offers, not only to Edward and his family, but to her family as well. She doesn't turn her back on her friends, even when we would consider it tempting. All of these characteristics are indicative of a very mature and settled mind, and that's what really draws me in (of course Edward's crooked smile, velvet voice, and quiet grace is an attraction as well).

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Great article on movie cast interviews

I found this great article last night on Vanity Fair's website. They did a photo shoot with the cast from the movie awhile back and have individual interviews with 12 of the cast members. They're all separated out, but here's the main link: http://www.vanityfair.com/online/culture/2008/11/05/twilight-mania.html

I'll try posting the actual interviews when I get the site fully up.

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Could you go on?

Could you really go on with life if your reason for living was suddenly snatched out of your fingertips? The question isn't would you want to go on... it's would you be able to?

When I read the first part of New Moon I felt as though I had been punched in the gut... all of Bella's heartache, the crippling emptiness she felt was right there inside me as well. I actually had to close the book and take some time to grieve. (It only lasted about an hour as that's as long as I could stand to stay away). But it got me thinking... how unbelievably brave she was to go on with life. I know she wasn't truly out there, living it to its fullest, but she did make the decision to go on. Bella wasn't expecting things to change, she had no way of knowing what her future held (as we who were reading hoped we knew) but she showed up for life each day, each breath was a battle won, each morning a new day, simply to be fought again.

When life comes and throws the unthinkable at us, do we give up? If we knew what was in store for us we probably would, but the not-knowing is always manageable. We can't always prepare for the worst imaginable loss, but we get through it. Coming out the other end is the gift. What would have happened to Bella if she'd simply thrown in the towel? We certainly wouldn't have Eclipse and Breaking Dawn on our bookshelves.

Bella has taught us how to live, ironically. She took the worst blow in the very first pages of New Moon, wrapped herself up tightly so as not to fall apart, and went on... day by day, minute by minute. Real-life can offer the same amazing rewards that our heroine reaped. We too can choose to live another day and see what life has in store for us. I'm sure most will be pleasantly surprised by what we can really live through, and it all becomes clear what we're really living for.

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Honestly...

One of the things that still grips me, even knowing the outcome of the saga and all that transpires from the first pages of Twilight through the last of Breaking Dawn, is Bella's honesty with Edward. It would have been so easy for her to hide from him; her thoughts were already blocked from his unique ability to mind-read. And as frustrating as it was for him to not know what was on her mind, she was as willing to share with him everything she was thinking... especially before she became his protector.

Over the course of the series Bella transforms not only from a human form to one of an immortal, but also from a clumsy and awkward girl to a graceful and agile woman. It's easy to attribute all of her physical changes and abilities to the vampire-characteristics we admire in the novels. But I see so much more of a change in her due to the process of falling in unconditional love, getting married, giving birth to a child, and in essence... maturing into a woman.

Bella's journey, although set in a mystical story with monsters, magic and suspense, is a timeless tale of a simple girl growing up and trying to make the right choices. Throughout Twilight, Bella is in constant need of protection from Edward, his "lifestyle", and other outside influences. Of course we find Edward coming to her defense time and time again. And so begins New Moon, another story of her rescue at Edward's hands. I believe the hardest thing for him to do was to walk away, and that he really did think it was the best option. But here comes the twist... and as you read the books you can feel the transition... Bella's life, her every breath, is about saving him, her true love, at all costs. She becomes Edward's protector and in so doing, begins to hide her thoughts from him. This cross-over develops further throughout Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. She doesn't hide her thoughts merely to protect his life, but to protect his heart. It's ironic. The greatest gift she can give him, and at the end of the saga we witness this (with tears in your eyes if you're anything like me), is her unshielded heart, her naked emotions, her true, unguarded self. It's all he ever wanted. So Bella comes full circle for her Edward.

Our natural instincts for self-preservation usually result in caution. Bella's actions are the opposite. Of course we wouldn't expect anything different from her, now that we know her, and in the context of a romance novel. But would you be completely honest with the object of your fascination, especially when you knew that you didn't have to be? She could so easily have hidden her responses, masked her love in some way. I suppose that's the attraction. We don't often see in real-life a love story so compelling, we don't witness the emotion, or the commitment. This type of love, is it only seen in the pages of a book or are we missing something here? Perhaps if we tried being as honest with our "Edward" as Bella is, then it wouldn't be so outrageous to think that this soul-mate/once in a life-time/unconditional true-love romance could exist, and that it could develop so quickly.

We get all wrapped up in pretenses, in what others see in us, in what we want the world to think, that we often allow that special someone to pass us by. Bella simply put herself out there, exposed the raw nature of her emotion. She didn't run, she didn't hide, she didn't make excuses for her feelings... She knew what she wanted and she pursued it... Him. And in so doing, she found herself in the deepest love a human (or perhaps any creature... fairytale or otherwise) might experience.

So maybe that's the secret, the missing piece, the answer to those of you searching and coming up empty or broken or not fully satisfied. Just be honest... with yourself and with the object you desire. Bella was and look where it got her. It's not so surprising then to see how quickly and completely Bella's and Edward's love grew and transformed their lives, and the lives of those they touched... ours.

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A Desperate Grasp for Closure

I have to thank my Twilight Friends for this one...

Even when I was only half-way through my first read of Twilight I knew I'd be longing for more of Edward once I finished the saga. A girlfriend of mine told me about the partially written version of Midnight Sun on Stephenie Meyer's website. Although it's not a fifth book in the Twilight series, it is a version of Twilight from Edward Cullen's perspective.

I didn't look into it until I finished Breaking Dawn, but I am so happy to have found a little bit more of my favorite character and am looking forward to savoring each and every word Stephenie has gifted her fans with.

I'm trying hard not to start reading it until I at least fulfill some of my daily obligations. You have no idea how much self-control is required here (well, Twilight fans probably have a very good idea of what this entails). I'm sure that once I finish those last written words I will go through yet another wave of depression, but what greater gift could I ask for than a few words of closure from Edward himself?

Thank you Stephenie for allowing us to read Midnight Sun. I do hope that someday it will become a complete and published work to sit beside the other bound novels on your desk.

Post-Twilight Depression

Having finished the 4 book series yesterday, I have to admit I am feeling a bit depressed. The last time I felt like this was the day after I got married. It seems as though when you're wrapped up in something so wonderful and you don't want to come up for air that once you do, you feel like you're drowning almost.

The post-wedding blues set on once the excitement dies down and you realize that all the butterflies and hours upon hours building up to the climactic event have been quieted. Surprisingly, I had a feeling this would happen once I closed the cover on Breaking Dawn, Stephenie Meyer's final book in the Twilight Series. As I turned the last 5 pages, I felt the dred settling in and almost didn't want to keep reading. However, those last pages were no different than the previous 2000 of the saga and I simply couldn't bring myself to stop.

Never in my life have I been inspired to read a book more than once. I don't seem to have enough patience for flipping pages when I already know the outcome. My life has been changed forever... and on so many levels. I'm already running through my schedule for today in my head and looking for a few moments that I may be able to go back and pick up my now tattered edition of Twilight. The binding has been broken like many of Bella's favorite works and I know that something on the pages will catch my eye and draw me in once again to Edward's mysterious mind and Bella's unimaginable courage and honesty.

Stephenie is probably the most talented writer I've ever come across. It's rare to find such adventure, mystery, romance, intrigue and emotion all in one place.
Here's to not wanting it to ever end.

I resisted, but now I'm hooked!

Well, it's official... I suppose you can consider me a Twerd or whatever the new term is for someone completely mesmerised and addicted to the Twilight Saga. It took me a total of 9 days to devour all four of Stephenie Meyer's novels in the Twilight series. Much to my husband's dismay, I couldn't put the books down to have a normal social interaction over the last week and a half. My life has been changed forever!

It took me over 6 months to commit myself to opening the first book, which sat collecting dust on my nightstand for about 3 months after I finally caved in and bought the paperback. As strange as the concept now seems, I packed it for a retreat weekend thinking I might have some alone time and want to get a little reading in... My attention to the book and lack of interest in the retreat was borderline embarrassing. So much for alone time, all I wanted was to be with Bella and Edward... especially Edward!

Of this I am sure... "I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love" with Edward Cullen...